hotness

i'm really curious. what defines HoTness?

what decides if a girl is hot... or not?
a skinny girl with boobs?
someone tanned and toned?
someone capable of shaking that booty.. ... forgive me.. that TIGHT booty of hers?

what exactly IS hot?

let's be realistic and ignore VS models and the stick figures that grace the floor walking like silent angry moody cats... let's ignore the crazy women in brazil who wake up 5 am for insane morning jogs.. let's even ignore the tall lanky Caucasians.

let's just discuss normal everyday Singaporean girls. cos really.. i think just us alone presents a vast variety "hot" or "not" girls.

so ok... a skinny girl... slim.. slender... is she hot even if she doesn't eat?
or is a well padded lady hotter? ... i mean... really.. what gives?

call me jealous cos i REALLY am envious of the ones with nicely thin arms and flat tummies.. i look and wonder why da HELL can't I be like them? ( fine FINE example of what stereotypicals have been doing to our society!) then i stop and think.. do they EAT? ...

so HOORAY for those who do indulge in actual real food... but to those who starve themselves?
i dunno if I'm ready to give up the comfort food provides me just to look the part of a culture that has gold plated the key to being attractive to be 5 kgs below healthy weight.

sigh. sour grapes speaking you might say.
half admittedly... i wish i had the will power to give up food and be skinny...( here comes another contradiction) yet I pride myself in the ability to deny what has driven so many girls to doing penance for simply having the carnal innate to DAMN well EAT!

tsk.
i stand at the edge. looking down into the pit many have fallen into...
it looks pretty down there...

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side track. i need comments...
should i be annoyed or maybe a lil concerned over the fact that my boyfriend reads another girl's blog for info on her love life even though the writing isn't great? ...

should i?

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side track2 .
tsk... i love my boyfriend.. i really do...
but sometimes... i miss being single... i miss my freedom...
just sometimes.